Patty's Letter to Kathi
Hi Sweetie,
I am thinking of you this morning.
Can you do me a favor????
There is a little tiny book called "Happiness is a Choice." I know, it sounds silly and rather stupid but what is inside is really cool.
I want you to go to the bookstore and get it. Or you can order it thru Amazon.
Anyways get it for me and it is easy reading and read the doggone thing.
Kathi, your body is crying out to be helped. It is crying out for what it needs to be stabilized. For many many years now, your body's boss - you, have been denying what it needs for various reasons. Denial I know is one Kathi.
It is not normal for your body to physically stay up all those nights, put it through all the emotional stress, etc. etc.
Your body,...your brain needs the correct medication so it can stabilize. Think of what the term stabilize means. It needs to be "normalized." It needs to settle down and function at a normal base mode where there it isn't being taxed, where it can rest and only do the job it is supposed to do.
You don't have any reserves left in your body to even begin to deal with the tremendous psychic pain you are in right now. You aren't giving it a chance.
You need to allow your physical body a chance to heal. Your physical body will thus come around and help heal your emotions, your sleep, etc. etc.
You don't , I repeat, you don't have any reserves left right now to
deal with the tremendous psychic pain you feel. So you feel there is no
hope because you are digging way deep within you and you are coming up
empty.
That's scary isn't it?
Kathi, it's ok and good and healthy to put your Dr. in charge instead of you in regards to your medical situation. Your Dr. is trained to diagnose and treat you. You are not. I don't care how many books you have read, you are not trained to heal your body and your mind the way your Dr. is. You are not trained to diagnose yourself. Trust me on this. You are not. You cannot even come out of denial. You are getting in your own way of recovery and yes you can recover if you can get the hell of the way.
I am speaking frankly to you Kathi because I fear losing you. I do. I see you as a true suicide risk and I am afraid for you and for me too. I am afraid to experience losing you because I love you. Do you know that? Nope not like Christina. Yuck! Icky Poo! :-) However I love you very deeply as my own family.
Get the hell out of your way Kathi. It doesn't matter what you believe about medicine. It doesn't matter what you believe about whether you have a diagnosis or not. Nobody cares. Nobody cares. Do you understand???
The only thing that matters is that you get the right treatment so that you can #1 live through this so you can heal. You can heal if you take medicine. I don't care what you believe or think about medicine Kathi. Your body is crying out for serotonin right now. do you know that? do you know that people that kill themselves are usually very low in serotonin??? This is only one example of what your body needs.
Your body does not have the time for you to reason everything out and for your to come out of denial. You are putting it through hell.
Do what your Dr. says - everything!!!!
Rely on friends!!!!
Know you are loved!!!!
Know you are wonderful with absolutely wonderful qualities!!!!
Know you are extremely loveable!!!!
Know that there is a reason that you are here on this earth and this is where you need to be.!!!!!
Know that there is healing for Kathi and that you have a future and it is a wonderful one!!!!!
Work hard towards your goals - right now that means stay alive!!!!!!!!!!
You are in my prayers girl!
Patty
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